|Posted by billcolemaninnocentmanwrongfullyconvicted on May 31, 2011 at 6:43 AM|
It would be impossible to write to everyone, so to my family , friends and supporters:
From the very large target placed on my back(stemming from myths from the top of the Connecticut department of corrections, down to rumours between staff), I stay in my cell 24 hours a day. The only exceptions are to take a shower, make a call or other brief necessities feel “out of site, out of mind” is lesser of the evils I face.
It is said that man is born free, yet lives in chains, nowhere is this more true than in the United States. Citizens here just don't get it and live in ignorance as the hopes of the founding fathers, through an idealistic constitution slips further away on a daily basis. The reason this deception, by those in and with power, is so egregious is because those very same people boast in an arrogant and grandiose fashion, that the United States is the “greatest country on earth” were its people live in freedom and democracy. Where as it should be and could be true, it is sadly not the case. It is my hope that some day all aspects of my case( including the family, criminal and force feeding/ human rights courts) will expose this. It is important to note that besides the fact I have been removed from my children's lives and being wrongfully convicted of a crime I did not commit, I have been physically and psychologically tortured with the authority of the United States on its own soil. This was confirmed and concluded by the United Nations investigation into my treatment.
Martin Luther King said “ its not the words of our enemies we remember but the silence of our friends”. There are many of my friends that I have not heard from which has been of great confusion, pain,sadness and disappointment to me. As I worked through this I realised ultimately it is their issue and not mine and that's very sadness for them.
However , I have been very fortunate by the friends who have supported me through these past years and in having such an amazing family. To me they have truly no equal. So to my fiends and family, I want you to know you will always have my eternal thanks and love. To all the others who have (and are) supporting me, in many various ways, please accept my humble gratitude. All of you are a piece in my “jigsaw puzzle” of survival and I hope that one day everyone will be rewarded in some way. What you have done for me show what great people you are. This in its self, if you allow yourselves to recognise it, is a part of the reward due to you. God bless you all.
Finally to my sons, Liam and Aidan, I say this,
“ please remember I love you both so very much and all I do is for you both. My arms cry in pain because I miss holding you. I want to live for you both, but I am willing to die for you also. I ask you never let anyone tell you what they think the truth is, including me, but to find out the “truth” for yourselves.
Please know I have forgiven your mother for what she has done to me. I take as much of the blame for the breakdown of our relationship and I am sorry for my part and can only ask you to forgive me. It deeply pains me how sorry I am as I have not been able to share the love I have for you both over the last few years and have missed you growing up. I can not put into words how much sadness I have felt during this time.
God bless you both, Liam and Aidan, all my love always. Xoxoxoxoxoxo”
Finally i leave you with this, “ what we do for ourselves dies with us, what we do for others lives on”
Thank you all